The past 9 days have been nothing short of amazing. I returned to work and survived the week. My coworkers and fish seemed to miss me. Did I mention we have a fabulous aquarium in the office? Speaking of fabulous, FOUR people reached out to let me know they have either contacted the living donor coordinator or were going to.
How do I thank these people who are willing to be screened; who are offering something so incredibly selfless? Not to mention all the people who have already offered to donate who didn’t meet the criteria? I am humbled, awed and overwhelmed. It’s comforting to see the love of God permeating, infusing and flowing through others like a dazzling array of light. Notwithstanding, I must confess that even though I want to go to heaven, I’m not sitting at the front door with my bags packed waiting for the shuttle to pull into the driveway.
I know heaven is beyond anything I could ask for or imagine, but I only know this earth. For 52 years, this is all I’ve known. Everyone and everything I love is here: my families (through birth, marriage, church, work and my friends) are here. All the flowers, trees, mountains, valleys and oceans are here. All the animals of the earth are here.
I’m not ready to say goodbye to Stan, the love of my life or his children and grandchildren (my stepchildren whom I love as my own). I’m not ready to say goodbye to my mother and stepfather, my sister and brother-in-law, my stepbrothers and stepsister and their families, my aunts, uncles and cousins and friends; especially those who have always been in my life and are family as legitimately as if through birth.
I want more time to Love my people. Without love I am nothing and a life without others to share it with is meaningless. As always, thanks for walking this journey with me.
All Hail the Queen – Brenda
